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Wow lets see, I'm not sure what to say...I fall in love fast but i dont want to. Its lame how you see people that your close get there hearts BrOkEn. Its so hard to see them like that. And then i look at myslef and think if they didnt make it after all that effort and all those obstacles they went through, what makes me think i can? I mean love is just such a complexs thing and i love to see how it works but when it comes to me i dont wanna take the chance. Which is ReAlLy lame and i know i should try but i'm always afraid of the outcome of it i guess. so i really dont know what to do sometimes, i wanna take the chance but i always back down....I know the only way to find that PeRsOn that I will love and they would return the love id have go through these obstacles myself. Well i guess it better to take a chance than not to take a chance at all well I guess NeXt time ill take the chance......And hopefully it will be the right chance to take....

 Ahh I always get CRUSHES! I Really don't like having them Cause Crushes Always seem to have something over you! Even if your Crush doesnt know you like them, I just dont like feeling like I must OBEY! LOL! But its not like I act like a SLAVE! ButI act diffrently!LOL! But I guess Crushes are a PLUS and Minus type a thing! BUt Yeah if your like one of my close friends you definetly know that! And when I fall for somebody I usually FALL HHHHAAAARRRDDD like that person is thhhhheee ONLY thing i think about like 24/7 LOL! BUt i like the feeling of having a crush but at the same i dont at all!!!!!!!! Like I said it makes me feel like IM like a SLAVE jeez its like you do watever they want or like ill freeze if the person i have a crush i dont know ill like freeze or if im talking to one of my friends i like stop talking all together till the person is like Gone lol! & i like to talk so you definietly know wen i got one!! I cant keep a secret! OH, well I dont try to do anything wen i gotta crush on somebody because im not thinking the way i would usuall think so yeah...I try to be careful and sTuFF!!!!!!! So uh...wat are ur guyzs is thoughts?